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I got this message from you and I read it twice,
After the second I decided to not be nice,
I took long strides and took a breath,
Looked at the one you needed so much- and left.

If It wasn't for the honesty you gave and smiles you saved,
The questions I asked and the lies that masked,
I would have been a fool for your power and will,
I could have stayed in the lonely and strayed.

Here I am looking at your enlightenment,
Your contended assignment,
Making me feel the pain that I knew I would,
But I can walk away - as I do - you understood.

I am yours and you were all I wanted,
Never this envy and taunting,
She can have what she wants,
I want nothing that hurts and haunts.

Nightmares take a hold of me now,
Everynight I dream of us and how we used to be,
How we were so close and never to far,
How I loved everything that you were.

What happened?

Tell me .. can you take these tears that fall,
Can you make up excuses at all,
Is it me or is it you,
Can I blame it on what you pursued.

This is the last time I take chances on something I care so much,
I gave with all my soul, delicate laughter, and touch,
Sitting here asking what was the point,
This message that will soon disappoint.

I need you to tell me what happened to us,
When you promised you would stay,
Never come up with excuses and dissmay,
I will hope you find something more,
Because I learned my lessons from the down pour,
The storm that took me life with one move,
Before I could ask why it blew.

I wished you could have been different because I did love, Now that you did that- I am far from this, Far from hurt and all your anguished mist.

Storm rises to my hair,
To show I stand still from a single care.

I am over you now.