Empty Love Dreams

When someone has joy they bring others it can brighten enhance a shine upon their face, or it can work the other way around. When someone is happy you either are wanting to be near that person, or you envy that person. When you don't see that happiness anymore, watching them fall apart, seeing no more random laughter, would you walk away or show them happiness once again.


Still she sits there, with her hands folded across and her feet fashioned firmly with ease. I noticed her when she and I were in grade school. She always wore the pressed jeans and bleached white shirts. She was a image of perfection, and she was nice as well. Nice in meaning that she was always generous and beyond caring. She was the last person that I thought would come and say hello to the new girl. She came right up and asked if she could be my friend.

I have known her since then, for six years. She is still the same spark of beauty and glory as ever. Whenever I would look at her as she spoke with so much grace and passion, she made others smile. You could see her tell stories of her church, which made her an even honorary person to look up to. The way every move she made seemed to be so easy for her, like it were an expression of godliness.

I was not her best friend or even the closest, but she always gave random chats with me every now and then. I would cherish those times she would talk to me, because so many vented upon her attention. I sometimes wished I could be her. She was so deep within life, so balanced with everything she did, yet so happy with everyday she awoke.

With her eyes looking to the passing cars and her hands held on my shoulders, she told me with a serious smile..

"A new tree will grow with its first leaves, roots and stems. Then when the tree can no longer grow those stems and shed those first grown leaves, they are cut from the gardener. The gardener cuts it down to very blunt stubs. The tree has a choice. It can either grow those stems and make new leaves, or stay a stub with sparse branches and few leaves. The tree the grows, will flourish with stronger roots and greener leaves. "

I was in need of some cheering up that day, and she knew just what to say to me.

I watched her after a few months though. She became a different person. There were days when she came to school and other days when she didn't. I could make out something different about her, and she was no longer smiling. The cheerful person I always knew, was fading.

I came up to her one day and asked her what was the matter, but she just nudged her head and gave a smirk to calm my worries. I gave her a hug and she gave me a silenet grasp. She looked at me under the sun filled skies, and her eyes created clouds. When she walked away from me as I watched her lead on the path to her house, I could not see the brightness that shown through her presence. She was lost and I didn't know what to do. I watched her leave all the happiness with so many others and the sorrows with herself. I wished I could have told her something that day.

Her happiness made other trees grow. She made others stronger and helped them live life with passion and resilience.

She will always be rememebered.


" A person can either let the world take them down, or let the world give them stregth. When you get cut and become depressed, if you choose to prevail you can flourish brighter then you ever have."